Re-Integrative Healing

Re-Configuring Ourselves into a Better Shape

Most medical doctors still consider that “physical” chronic illnesses like Parkinson's are due to brain rot and neuronal deaths, which then have secondary impacts on mental health. I believe they are generally quite wrong. Many instances of these illnesses are complete systemic dis-eases involving mental-emotional-physical-relational-social breakdowns over periods of decades of decline, during which “mind” and “body” inflammations are extremely intertwined and indelibly inter-related.

Ironically, what I came to rapidly realize through my own journey is that these modern dis-eases result from a complete breakdown of self, a shattering or fragmenting of the entire system. We stop habitualizing, stop being present to, stop identifying with, withdrawal from, and stop living fully within, our own physical body, our gut instincts, our heartfelt emotions, various aspects of our personality, and our intimate and social relationships. We then cease to recognize the signals between these parts of ourselves, no longer listening or heeding the warning signs and alarm bells ringing between them. And in this undoing, we find ourselves at a breaking point, at the crossroads between an unexpected interruption of a Past-Life-with-Unintended-Consequences, and an Unfortunately-Unforeseen-Unwanted-Future.

This is why I am now certain that the lure of a cure will never, can never, be forthcoming, for no magic pill can ever fix this. Instead, if we are to heal, I mean truly heal, the only way to do so is to pick up the pieces of ourselves and reconstruct. Alas, there is no point in seeking to put ourselves back together as we once were - to replicate the “I” from before the symptoms became noticeable enough for a diagnosis to be made by those doctors - for that pattern of ourselves was so unstable that it became sick.

Instead, we must reconfigure via whatever process of fixing we can, such that, in the healing, we are not just pulling ourselves back together, but forward together. Into a "new me" without the fault lines of the past. This time, a future proof "I". In short, we must pull ourselves back into a very much more stable shape.